Diet Pills: Is it a cry for help or weight loss booster?

Hello all.

Yeah it's me the occasional blogger. My apologies but this journey gets tougher and tougher for me. So I thought I would let you know I've been struggling. So much that I am seriously considering diet pills. Here is why I feel like I need "assistance."

1. I can barely stick to a program...remember my 10 week challenge? Yeah well I failed miserably. I think when the goal is weight loss, weight GAIN isn't suppose to occur.
2. I make the effort to "stick" to a program and the results are less than stellar.

So I think I want to try Sensa. Have you heard of it? Well in one of my many insomnia-tic (is that a word? If not you get the idea) nights I saw an infomercial for Sensa. It's a seasoning/powder you sprinkle on your food and it's suppose to give you a feeling of satiety quicker so you eat less. Average person lost about 30 pounds in 6 months according to their claim. Here's the problem, the first month is $90 bucks! Each following month is like $50!!!! And you basically stay on the program until you reach your goal weight. I am honestly not ready to part with that much money for a diet aid that may or may not work for me.

My other alternatives are a drug store diet pills (dexatrim, hydroxycut, xendrine, and the like) these are more affordable but will they really work for me is the question. I tell you trying to lose weight at 40 has been like climbing up a frozen hill with an icy patch while wearing new shoes...you know when the sole is really slippery? I can't even say its like walking up and down escalator because you eventually make it to the top. This frozen hill doesn't even allow me to regain my footing! Ugh!

So let me know your thoughts on diet pills or aids. Would you do it? Are you doing it? Did you do it? What were your results? Please post below. I plan on visiting my local drugstore this weekend to take the plunge!

Here's to you and your journey, that it's not as treacherous as mine! :-)

Notes from an insomniac

Hello night owls.

I'm here typing on my laptop and watching Roseanne and its almost 2am. I have nights like this from time to time. I know its been a while since I've written anything...my apologies. I've been battling some major asthma attacks and panic attacks. Life has been pretty tough for me. I feel like I've been in survival mode for the last month and a half. I've been living life moment to moment. It has been tough to say the least. Well I'm laying here nursing an abscess tooth, stressing over finances, and dreading going to work in the morning. Welcome to my everyday well except for the abscess tooth dilemma.

I've manage to maintain my weight loss for the most part. I'm only about 1.2 pounds over my lowest weight recorded. So I'm approximately 222.0. and that is commendable because I wasn't going to say anything but let's say that I've eaten my weight in Reese's Peanut Butter cups in the past 2 weeks! Yeah I said it. Well it's only 24 days till my Black Friday shopping day. It was the day that I wanted to be about 199 pounds and roughly a size 12/14. Well I'm 23 pounds away from that goal. All I can say is UGH! My new goal is to lose about 15 pounds in the next 24 days. I don't want to go overboard and try and lose 23 pounds in 24 days but hey if it happens it will be a great day!!!

So starting tomorrow I am going to visit the gym directly after work. I have to find a way to unwind and alleviate stress and the only way I can see doing that is hitting the gym directly after work. I'm tired of coming home from work too tired to spend quality time with my family. It really breaks my heart when I've devoted my energy to a boss that doesn't appreciate me instead of utilizing that energy for my daughter who wants her mommy to play dolls with her. My priorities are out of whack. It's time to get them back on track.

What do you do to alleviate stress? How do you prevent from getting worn out at work so you can utilize your energy for your loved ones? Please post below. Thanks!