What I want to be when I grow up...

I know to some folks that sounds like a silly comment reserved for the young, but to me this is a statement that can be made by anyone of any age. We are always changing and evolving so a statement such as that is not really silly.

Okay there I go again rambling and getting off the subject. Warning: I have ADD so staying focused on a topic is a challenge for me! This is just a warning.

So just a little bit about me and my future... I was attending school full time and working full time (yes, I know insane) I was working towards another associates degree but instead of business and fashion I was going for something practical, nursing. We took all the prerequisites I needed as well as the nursing school entrance exam and while I passed everything my GPA is not competitive as it needs to be in order to be accepted into the program. So I have to sit these next few semesters out. So because I am the way I am I have to stay busy and one career I always aspired to have was a graphic design/multimedia design business. I am honestly not gung ho on becoming a nursing...not really looking forward to wiping butts, butt it is a career that I know I will always have a job to fall back on. Eww, just then I was sounding sensible. Ugh! Warning to you youngsters out there once you have a kid you will sound "sensible" too!

Anyway, back to what I am going to do during this hiatus. I am going to take some online courses in web design and graphic design. I plan on expanding my retail boutique blog and retail consulting services to feature web and graphic design to the menu.

I am busily planning my consulting business. Not to mention design a line of ribbon and fabric. Check me out! :-)

I'm angry and I am not sure why

So I am angry I guess at my current situation. I know I need to channel that energy into a more positive energy and let go of what is making me angry. I know why I am angry and it is just petty and childish and I need to just focus on losing this weight instead of worry about someone or something.

I just bought the book by Jillian Michaels. I might have posted this alright so forgive me for my mindless moment. I am hoping this book is good and it helps me to take time (1 year to be exact) to get my act together and really focus on living a healthier lifestyle with weight loss as the by-product.

I really made a commitment this time. I took some really uh, scary "before" pictures. I have to say I have a treasure trove of before pictures but I took pictures with my phone of me in my underwear. One word "Scary." That picture will be revealed when I reach my half way mark or when I reach my goal weight. Not sure yet.

So I also created an inspiration board. I feel that will give me the motivation to stay on track. I currently have jcrew photos. I plan on adding pictures of j mac clothes, lilly, milly and lululemon atheltica. Since I want to become a runner

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Motivation

Okay so my younger brother called me today to let me know that he and his girlfriend got engaged this week. He also informed me that the wedding was going to be about this time next year. Well what better reason to embark on my 100 pound journey than to have an excuse to get a pretty dress! So I am debating whether or not I want to make my own dress or if I want a dress like a ck bradley, lilly, milly, jmac...im not sure but I know I will need a new wardrobe if I am going to attend the wedding with my new body!

So his advise was to start the P90X series from beachbody.com. I have Chalean Extreme so I am going to do that instead. And starting tomorrow, er today I am going to start walking...OUTSIDE! My ultimate goal...to run on a daily basis. Experience what runner's high is like. I am sure it will far surpass those cravings of bad foods! I also want to do yoga about 2 times per week.

I know I will need to take multivitamins daily. I am going to read Jillian Michaels' new book about incorporating all aspects of weight loss into one program in order to lose the weight AND keep it off! So join me in my journey to the Me I want to be!

My 100 lb Journey begins today...again!

Hello! It's been a while. I have been living la vida loca for the first part of the year! Going to school full time, working full time, being a wife and mother...FULL TIME! And here comes my excuse....wait for it, wait for it...I didnt have time focus on my weight loss! Imagine THAT! LOL!!!

So this go round I am not going to go on a diet "per se" I am going to modify my sugar intake and minimize what I eat. You know the 80/20 rule? Well my modification will be I am going to only eat 80% of what I normally eat and lets see how far that takes me! Wish me luck!