Day 11: Pilates & 3 miles with weights

Today I avoided doing the Chalean Extreme Burn Circuit 2 for the Pilates beginner's mat workout and Walk away the pounds 3 miles with weights. I'm bound and determined to get to a size 8 by Thanksgiving! Last year my goal was to go shopping on Black Friday and get a new wardrobe on sale but that never happened. This year it will happen!

Day 2: 4 miles

I know there isn't a day one. Yesterday I started a challenge. I read somewhere it takes 21 days to start a habit. I want my habit to be to workout consistently. So yesterday I started working out again after not working out since June. I'm pretty proud of myself for two things sticking it out and completing the 4 mile tape AND waking up to workout! I never do either. I'm trying to do things differently now. I have to say working out first thing sure gives you a sense of accomplishment! Tomorrow I'll post days 1 thru 7 of 21 day workout plan. How are you doing with your fitness routine?

Sums up how I feel

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Wordless Wednesday

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I want to change my blog name

I've been pretty absent here on this blog because I've been blogging over at my lifestyle blog Shop Girl Speaks. It's a bit of this and that happening in my life. I have to admit when I first started this blog I thought the name was catchy and it really summed up how I felt about myself at the time. Well times change and I'm honestly tired of my blog name. When I read it, it makes me feel like I'm always hopeful to be that person but will NEVER BE that person. Does that make sense? In my heart I know I will achieve my weight and inch loss in time. How long who knows but I truly believe I WILL achieve my goal. With that being said I would like to change the name to something more direct and positive like... "The ME I'm GONNA be!" Sounds better don't you think?

Weight Loss Inspiration: Charlotte Siems

I'm still struggling with my weight, that is nothing new. While I haven't been motivated to do much I haven't gotten to the point of totally giving up. From time to time I get motivated from other people's success at their weight loss journey one person for me has been Charlotte Siems. Charlotte has lost over 100 pounds with T-Tapp!!!

I have to admit I find that when I'm completely discouraged I'll watch this video and somehow it sparks a little motivation in me. She is probably the only weight loss success story that makes me feel that if she can do it so can I. I'm not sure why because she is the mother of 12 and our life stories other than weight loss are different, but something about her journey speaks to me. See the video below.





Who motivates you?

What else can I do?

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I have been struggling with my weight loss and I'm not sure how to push through when the going gets tough and boy is it ever!

I don't know about you but if I read one more testimonial that states "If I can do it so can you!" I'm going to scream! I say, "You don't know me, so how in the hell do you know that I could do it?" My body has proven to me that I CAN'T DO IT! So there now what? Not to mention who knows what covert attempts you've taken during your journey to get to your goal weight. Like some of these fitness "gurus" that claim they used "Gadget X" to get into that svelte shape they're sporting, alot of them share half truths. Chances are that B rate celebrity didn't use gadget X to get that slim. They lied cheated and who knows what to get where they got. I know I sound miffed because I am.

This weekend I will celebrate my 41st birthday and I remember back before I turned 30, I vowed to get back down to the size 4 I was in my early 20's. Well that never happened. I learned alot about losing weight since then and have applied certain principles along the way but nothing that helped me get back down to that size. I've now settled on being a size 8 and feel like it's a much more attainable size for me even though it equates to approximately 6 more inches in the bust/waist/hips than a size 4.

I'm very angry that I'm not where I want to be physically or financially and I know I only have myself to thank for that. I'm angry that I feel like a failure in the weight loss department when I feel like I've conquered other aspects of my life. Gosh I probably wouldn't be able to live with myself if I lost the weight. No I think I'll manage.

What happens when you can't push through the periods of discouragement? What do you do when nothing or no one seems to motivate you? Well that's where I am. The only thing I feel that will take me through is to continue my exercise regime whether or not it's doing anything and continue to eat healthier than I have in the past. Man that will be the hardest thing I will do. I mean who really wants to work hard at something and never see the outcome they're looking for? Especially someone who has no patience like me!

Like I said that is the only the thing I can do because that is the only thing I haven't done. Being consistent. This will be the challenge of my life folks is being consistent. Ugh, not looking forward to it but what do I got to lose? Weight? I hope!