New beginnings

Hello. I hope you all are having a very happy Holiday season. Want to know what I got for Christmas? Oh it's a good one... (I'm being sarcastic). I found out last Monday that the company I've been working for has decided to end operations and close up shop! I have to admit that it wasn't a shock to me. You know when you see an accident getting ready to happen but you just dont know what to do or where to begin to prevent it. Yep, that in a nutshell is how I feel about the company shut down.

I feel like it is a blessing that God has given me the opportunity for me to live the life I've been longing to have. I've been journaling since I was 7 years and that Monday morning was no different. I wrote in my journal how I longed to work from home and be there for my family and have a bit more sanity in my life. I have to admit my work environment was a bit toxic. I had a boss who liked to make most of our lives miserable...maybe because he was suffering inside who knows. All I know is that I don't work well when my hard work and efforts aren't appreciated.

With that being said I will be able to devote more time to my blog and come up with a consistent schedule and plan for my blog. It will also allow me to visit more blogs and be more interactive with my readers which makes me really happy. I finally have the opportunity to do what I want to do (hoping that my husband gets the job out west). If not then I will accept that this is not the right time and that my right time will come. I am staying positive and looking forward to the great things to come!

Have you been faced with "on the surface" a less than favorable situation that you felt was actually best for you and that you were happy about? What did you do? Please share it with me. Post your comments below.

Happy New Year!

Fashionable Friday: New Year's Sparkle

New Year's Sparkle by mylifeinflats featuring post earrings

Jenny Packham pink dress
€1.789 - jades24.com

Kate Spade glitter pumps
$2,720 - jildorshoes.com

Kate Spade high heel sandals
$325 - endless.com

Kate Spade bridal necklace
$295 - katespade.com

Kate Spade pearl bangle
$178 - couture.zappos.com

Kate Spade glitter ring
$148 - lordandtaylor.com

Kate Spade south sea pearl necklace
$128 - katespade.com

Kate spade bangle
$88 - nordstrom.com

Kate Spade post earrings
$58 - nordstrom.com

kate spade new york twirl eau de parfum, 3.4 oz.
$80 - neimanmarcus.com

Sparkler Coin Purse
$33 - katespade.com

Fashionable Friday: Christmas Shopping

Christmas Shopping by mylifeinflats featuring a leather vest

Moschino Cheap Chic long sleeve shirt
$277 - net-a-porter.com

Leather vest
$54 - wilsonsleather.com

True Religion straight leg jeans
$215 - stylebop.com

Repetto ballet flat
$265 - net-a-porter.com

Kate Spade patent leather handbag
$95 - lordandtaylor.com

Diamond stud earrings
$19 - fantasyjewelrybox.com

Wellesley Animal Quinn
$165 - katespade.com

Who inspires you?

Hello all.
Cavalier blogger here wondering who inspires you? I'm still having a time with motivation that I am going to look for inspiration to trigger the motivation. Does that make sense?

Well the tonight they showed the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show and I watched it again. Did you watch it? Oddly enough I felt motivated and proud to be a woman. Is that crazy? Hey listen I'm trying to grab my inspiration anywhere I can. The choice of music was incredible. Why? Because I was compelled to get up and dance and join the party. Jay-Z, Kanye West, Maroon 5, and Nicki Minaj was the music line-up...how can you resist? Well I know I couldn't I had to bust a move! ;-)

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So when the fashion show ended I thought...hey I'm up might as well start my new workout regime. I found this workout last night so I figured I would do it because it is basic and quick! I have to start really slow since I've been out of the workout loop for over a month probably two come to think of it. If you're looking to start a simple to do workout check out Downtownn on tumblr.

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Finally, after months of feeling down and less than I'm starting to see a spark again. Have you seen your spark? Let me know. Happy Holidays!!!

Diet Pills: Is it a cry for help or weight loss booster?

Hello all.

Yeah it's me the occasional blogger. My apologies but this journey gets tougher and tougher for me. So I thought I would let you know I've been struggling. So much that I am seriously considering diet pills. Here is why I feel like I need "assistance."

1. I can barely stick to a program...remember my 10 week challenge? Yeah well I failed miserably. I think when the goal is weight loss, weight GAIN isn't suppose to occur.
2. I make the effort to "stick" to a program and the results are less than stellar.

So I think I want to try Sensa. Have you heard of it? Well in one of my many insomnia-tic (is that a word? If not you get the idea) nights I saw an infomercial for Sensa. It's a seasoning/powder you sprinkle on your food and it's suppose to give you a feeling of satiety quicker so you eat less. Average person lost about 30 pounds in 6 months according to their claim. Here's the problem, the first month is $90 bucks! Each following month is like $50!!!! And you basically stay on the program until you reach your goal weight. I am honestly not ready to part with that much money for a diet aid that may or may not work for me.

My other alternatives are a drug store diet pills (dexatrim, hydroxycut, xendrine, and the like) these are more affordable but will they really work for me is the question. I tell you trying to lose weight at 40 has been like climbing up a frozen hill with an icy patch while wearing new shoes...you know when the sole is really slippery? I can't even say its like walking up and down escalator because you eventually make it to the top. This frozen hill doesn't even allow me to regain my footing! Ugh!

So let me know your thoughts on diet pills or aids. Would you do it? Are you doing it? Did you do it? What were your results? Please post below. I plan on visiting my local drugstore this weekend to take the plunge!

Here's to you and your journey, that it's not as treacherous as mine! :-)

Notes from an insomniac

Hello night owls.

I'm here typing on my laptop and watching Roseanne and its almost 2am. I have nights like this from time to time. I know its been a while since I've written anything...my apologies. I've been battling some major asthma attacks and panic attacks. Life has been pretty tough for me. I feel like I've been in survival mode for the last month and a half. I've been living life moment to moment. It has been tough to say the least. Well I'm laying here nursing an abscess tooth, stressing over finances, and dreading going to work in the morning. Welcome to my everyday well except for the abscess tooth dilemma.

I've manage to maintain my weight loss for the most part. I'm only about 1.2 pounds over my lowest weight recorded. So I'm approximately 222.0. and that is commendable because I wasn't going to say anything but let's say that I've eaten my weight in Reese's Peanut Butter cups in the past 2 weeks! Yeah I said it. Well it's only 24 days till my Black Friday shopping day. It was the day that I wanted to be about 199 pounds and roughly a size 12/14. Well I'm 23 pounds away from that goal. All I can say is UGH! My new goal is to lose about 15 pounds in the next 24 days. I don't want to go overboard and try and lose 23 pounds in 24 days but hey if it happens it will be a great day!!!

So starting tomorrow I am going to visit the gym directly after work. I have to find a way to unwind and alleviate stress and the only way I can see doing that is hitting the gym directly after work. I'm tired of coming home from work too tired to spend quality time with my family. It really breaks my heart when I've devoted my energy to a boss that doesn't appreciate me instead of utilizing that energy for my daughter who wants her mommy to play dolls with her. My priorities are out of whack. It's time to get them back on track.

What do you do to alleviate stress? How do you prevent from getting worn out at work so you can utilize your energy for your loved ones? Please post below. Thanks!

Out of control: Cheating to the extreme

Oy vey! I don't even know where to begin but I've been in a downward spiral. I've been binging on sugar and carbs for most of this month. I have to say this past month at work has been unbelievably stressful. I found myself going to my happy place. You're going to laugh when I tell you how I go to my happy place while at work. First I pray. I learned a while back (while I was in the ICU for severe asthma) the power of prayer. I still believe to this day that prayer was the reason why I got better.

Back to my happy place. I will google Park City, Utah because I felt my best there. I will just scroll through Google images of downtown and that puts a smile on my face. That's how I get happy. Another way is to comfort myself with food. I've found myself making very poor food choices. Choices that have included refined white carbs...sugar, white flour, and white potatoes.

It's time for me to re-group. I have only 5 weeks until my Black Friday shopping excursion and I'm not remotely close to being at a goal size of 12 or 14. So I have to make a serious effort at my workout plan and my meal plan...yeah that non-existent plan I keep talking about. On a brighter note I went shopping last weekend with my husband and I tried on a pair of size 18 jeans at old navy and THEY WERE TOO BIG!!! Yay!!! I guess I may be closer than I thought.

Tell me how do you stick to a plan or goal? Please post below. Thanks!